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Social Anxiety Struggles

I feel like everyone is constantly judging and staring at me while I’m out in public. I can’t make the negative thoughts go away no matter how hard I try. I realize it all sounds irrational but it makes complete sense to me in the moment. I should know that not everyone is judging or staring at me but my brain can’t make the connection.If I hear a laugh, I assume someone is laughing at me. I can’t perform a simple task in public because I feel that I’m being criticized. I barely graduated high school because walking down the crowded hallways caused me anxiety attacks. College brought on the same level of anxiety. I’ve never been able to hold down a job for longer than six months. Anxiety has held me back in so many ways and the more I try to get better, I fall two steps back.      I thought as I got older my anxiety would subside but it hasn’t. I’m still on the anxiety ship and it’s sinking more and more each day. I’m a twenty six year old woman who is a prisoner to her own apartment and mind. Life with anxiety isn’t much of a life at all. I’m patiently waiting for my ticket off the anxiety train but it never comes.

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I'm here to share my struggles with mental illness in hopes of raising awareness and helping others who struggle as well. This is my story. - M

One thought on “Social Anxiety Struggles

  1. I had social anxiety that manifested into general anxiety and OCD. I remember being in middle school thinking I would never graduate because of the severe panic. I, too, have learned that it does not just go away, but treatment can help and is so important. Take care!

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